This week we passed 40,000 hits to our family blog.
40,000 seconds in time that people indulged our wish for the best baby book ever, since it is clear we would never actually get AROUND to that actual baby book. I still hope too.
40,000 seconds when we worried if this or that fertility treatment would stick. If this pregnancy would hang around. If that injection that I really trusted my husband to do, but I had to grit my teeth during.
40,000 times that we thought, what the HELL are we doing having kids so close together. And times when people looked at me with those "Irish Twins?" eyes or thoughts or grumpiness that I wanted to explain the journey we went through and were so lucky with for both.
400 scratched cheeks because man do I stink at cutting and filing nails.
At least 40 times when we had the "do we really have to talk about infertility AGAIN on the blog" conversation? (Make that 41 in 5-4-3-2-1)
4,000 times that I thought internally or wondered externally, "am I doing this right".
400 awesome friends to remind me that the only right is the way that the parent chooses.
About 44 people that I put on my "blog" list on Facebook because I don't think they are too annoyed to see and hear our parenting journey.
4 times that I've given the kid Tylenol and send him/her to school because he didn't seem sick, wasn't acting THAT sick, and damn, this meeting is important.
At least 400 times when I thought, you mean my family wants to eat dinner... again?
And the 40 times I fed them takeout when I didn't buck up and nuke some turkey meatballs.
And my favorite four moments on the blog.
4) I love "On Love". I know that my personal love story isn't like the person next to me or the person next to them. I just know that Love is what's important. Whatever it looks like: http://palmettobaby.blogspot.com/2013/03/on-love.html
3) Faith. It's a thing I'm still squeamy to talk about. Kind of hate it in fact. But I want to raise my little people to be good big people. We're figuring it out. These are real questions that face Moms. Parents. People. That keep us up at night. http://palmettobaby.blogspot.com/2013/01/on-faith.html
2) I continue to work through what "Resolved" infertility means. We are so lucky. But that doesn't mean that others are as lucky. The words from RESOLVE day on the Hill follow me every day. They inspire me. They haunt me. http://palmettobaby.blogspot.com/2013/05/survivors-guilt.html
1) What a Panda Pregnancy Can Teach Us about Infertility: I was rocked by the panda pregnancy. It was awesome. It was hoped for. It made more press than any of the crappy news that comes out of DC every day. The world was abuzz. And it ended in a very real way for so many. She's a bear. But a fan-freaking-tastic metaphor for everyone. http://palmettobaby.blogspot.com/2012/09/what-panda-pregnancy-can-teach-us-about.html
And the most important four? Four people. Four snapshots of love. I'll take it.