Here's the context to yesterday: a really really terrible nights sleep followed by the anxiety of the hubby being out of town for two days and doing it all alone.
Here's the thing about me: I have a really well-defined sense of awesomeness.
The ones that know me well may cringe.
In church a few weeks ago, our (awesome) minister in her sermon mentioned being in a bible study and her asking the group when they go to bed at night, who really says "hey God, I did awesome today?" The crowd nervously chuckled and it seems no one did. Shawn looked at me. And me? Sometimes, I have days where I go to bed and say "Hey God, I did awesome today."
Call it an ego... an overly congratulatory sense of self... or just some acute self-awareness.
But I know when I'm doing awesome.
And I know when I'm not.
Yesterday? It was not awesome.
But I have to remember that just because I'm awesome doesn't mean I will be every day.
So tonight? "Hey God, I did way better than I expected today. Tomorrow? Tomorrow I will return to awesome. Amen."